get naked!! But no, not really

Dang... Its been like three days!!
I have either been really busy, tired, or attacked by a crocodile and unable to type until now.
Ill let you decide.

so, HI :)
Chapter 15:
So Sarai cannot conceive any baby's for Abram and i get the since that she is disappointed. She knows that he wants children so she gets her maidservant Hagar to be his wife.

So Hagar becomes pregnant and then instantly despises Sarai.
Bam! That didnt take long....
Okay come on lady's! You know this is typical reaction for us girls. Despise meaning to scorn (you know those looks we can give to other girls... mmmmm hmmmm. I aint the only one guilty)

I have to just say that Sarai had to be jealous in some way..I mean, another woman is having her mans babys.... There is no possible way she couldnt have been and im sure she despised Hagar as well, Even though she jut set it up to work out this way! Man, we are so indecisive. Can this hit home to anyone else or is it just me?

I mean Jon will sing that song Hot and Cold by Katy Perry to me as a joke but he aint kiddin.. man its true.
So what am i getting at today? Im all over the place. Something cool in this story happens so ill get to that.

Long story short Hagar is kicked out pretty much by Sarai and Hagar is found in the desert by an angel of the Lord who asks her, where did she come from and where is she going. The angel continues to tell her to go back to her mistress and SUBMIT to her. (I dont know about you but that would be hard. Submit to sarai while she is pregnant with her husbands baby? i dont know if i could have done that.) But Hagar does. And the angel tells her she will have many more descendants to come, even though this child will be a wild child who's name is Ishmael.

but HERE'S WHAT I LOVE! finally we got to it
Hagar says this "You are the God who see's me. I have now seen the one who see's me"

I LOVE THIS. I love how she has just humbled herself in this circumstance and got honest with herself. She recognized that God see's everything... he saw Hagar as she was. She did not have to put a front on for him, but he saw her as she was and loved her and opened her eyes to him.

cool. I dont have to put a front on, to God or anyone else. In fact, the only way I am going to truly grow in a relationship with God is if I am honest with everyone. I have a hard time doing that sometimes because I want to be perceived as more than I really am. But to truly grow and abide in God I have to first get real with Him and everyone else around me.

Thats step 1.

Its November 13th and I am gonna peel off these layers.